In The Dead Of Winter made this photograph when I had alot of anxiety and frustrations. like screaming in my head and pulling my hair out, inside my head. but on the outside...I pretend to be pleasant calm and "sweet". spoons are very dull......jam is very sweet.......spoons can be weapons......sometimes, oozing sweetness can be the complete opposite. not very sweet at all. too much. I just sit there quietly....in my quiet flat , to be honest, sometimes thinking about not so sweet things. but not thoughts of hurting others. just feel like I'm going crazy.